Devil's Throat
My first major dive took me 130 feet beneath the ocean, into darkness, tight caverns, and near panic. I went down hoping to conquer a fear. I surfaced knowing fear no longer got the final word.
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Dedication
Dedicated with love to my mom. Your encouragement, wisdom, and unwavering faith made me who I am, and I hope this book honors the legacy you left in my heart.
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Prologue
This book is not a memoir in the traditional sense. It is a collection of moments. Reflections. Questions. Lessons. Gratitude. Failures. Growth. Small discoveries that, over time, became a way of life
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Epilogue
Some stories don't end with success—they end with gratitude. Life's greatest accomplishments aren't measured by careers or possessions, but by the people we love and the memories we create together.
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The Art of Stillness
I spent much of my life climbing and chasing what came next. Only later did I discover that fulfillment wasn’t farther down the road—it was learning to be still and grateful for where I already was.
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The Family You Marry Into
When you marry someone, you don’t just marry a person—you enter another family. I was fortunate enough to discover something I never expected: another chair at the table, and a place where I belonged.
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Miles, Memories, and the Journey We Share
We traveled thousands of miles chasing beautiful places, but somewhere along the way I discovered the real magic wasn’t Paris, Tuscany, or Alaska. It was looking beside me and seeing Pam there.
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The Friends Who Never Left
I went to ISU expecting an education and a career. Nearly fifty years later, I realize its greatest gift was something I never anticipated—a circle of friends who would walk beside me for a lifetime.
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Five Years Into Retirement
I thought retirement meant stepping away from a meaningful career. I understand it differently now: the real gift wasn’t freedom from work—it was finally seeing clearly what deserved my time.
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Toward the Green Light
West Egg Living began with a simple question: How could the lessons of my life help someone else? What emerged wasn’t another business, but a philosophy for making the second half of life deeply good.
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A Life Among Houses
I thought I was starting over when my corporate career ended. Instead, I discovered that decades of engineering, home projects, and problem-solving had been preparing me for the next chapter all along
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A Bridge to Forever
I proposed to Pam high above the water on the Golden Gate Bridge, but our journey was about more than a wedding. After everything life had taught us, I had finally found the person who felt like home.
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A Tent Full of Love
I arrived thinking I had been left out, only to discover everyone had gathered for me. At sixty, I learned how profoundly the right kind of love can make you feel seen, celebrated, and home.
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Best Date Ever
It was our 3rd date, but between the laughter, lingering conversation, and being the last 2 people in the restaurant, something shifted. Later I told my son, “I just had the best date of my life."
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Finding My Match
After years of losing pieces of myself, I decided to choose hope, joy, and possibility again. I thought I was simply trying online dating. I had no idea I was about to meet the love of my life.
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Rock Bottom
Within two years, I lost my career, my home, my marriage, and the future I thought was secure. When everything I had built disappeared, I was forced to confront one question: What remained? I did.
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A Day of Triumph and Loss
One day I stood on the New York Stock Exchange ringing the closing bell, celebrating a 35-year career. Less than 24 hours later, another bell rang—and everything I thought was secure disappeared.
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Finding His Strength
I watched Jake’s strength grow from a cramped basement gym to the national stage. But the greatest strength he developed couldn’t be measured in kilograms—it was discipline, humility, and character.
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Fifty Candles
I turned 50 between the home that shaped me and the son who made me proud. Across 1000's of miles, I began to understand that life’s greatest milestones aren’t measured in years, but in relationships.
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The Maiden Voyage
We entered the BWCA as six rookies with too much gear and plenty to learn. Somewhere between the paddling, portages, mud, and laughter, we discovered the adventure was really about being together.
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Moments Marked in Paint
We thought we were chasing each other through the woods and playing paintball. What we were really collecting were stories—ridiculous, laughter-filled memories that would outlast every bruise.
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The Alumni Games
Basketball followed me from a snowy childhood driveway to packed high school gyms and fiercely competitive games with my brothers. Long after the final buzzer, the game still feels like home.
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Our Summer Catch
I thought I was teaching Jake how to catch, hit, and trust himself. Years later, I realized those ordinary evenings were teaching me something too: the true gift of fatherhood is simply being there.
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A Complicated Chapter
Our marriage was complicated, filled with love, struggle, sacrifice, and lessons I understood only years later. But through it all came the greatest gift we shared: raising our son, Jake.
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Jacob Timothy
I entered the hospital as a husband and left as a father. In one unforgettable moment, my world shifted forever—and suddenly every dream, ambition, and accomplishment had a new perspective.
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My First Address Of My Own
I thought buying my first house meant I had arrived. Instead, Sunnyside Rd became a classroom—teaching me about money, mistakes, self-reliance, and the confidence that comes from figuring things out.
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Long Lake Summers
For two summers, life was wonderfully simple: work hard, race home, and hit the lake with my brother. I didn’t know it then, but evenings like those would become some of my most treasured memories.
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The Rotary Rocket
That RX-7 was more than a sports car. It was freedom, independence, and the swagger of being young—when the road ahead seemed endless and something wonderful waited beyond every curve.
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When The World Opened
My first airplane ride showed me how big the world was. Before long, 3M was sending me across it—and every trip, project, and unfamiliar place was expanding the boundaries of my life.
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Chasing Opportunities
I had offers that paid more and paths that led farther from home. But one unexpected interview, one ridiculous answer, and one shared laugh opened the door to the next 35 years of my life.
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Caps and Champagne
Four years earlier, I arrived at Iowa State wondering if I belonged. Now I was leaving with a degree, a career waiting, and the confidence to discover what life beyond the classroom had in store.
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The Internship That Changed Everything
I went to Washington hoping to prove I could be an engineer. Three months later, I returned with something even more valuable—a clearer sense of the career, the life, and the man I wanted to become.
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The Summer of '78
I thought I was heading home for a quiet summer. Instead, one spontaneous “yes” opened the door to road trips, legendary concerts, great friends—and a summer that reminded me how to live.
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Finding My Groove At ISU
College taught me engineering, but some of its best lessons never appeared on a transcript. Somewhere between late-night studying and legendary nights on Cessna, I found my people—and myself.
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My Last Week of High School
Graduation was supposed to be my passage into adulthood. Instead, with my father gone and my mother fighting for her life, I learned that growing up sometimes arrives before you're ready.
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My Iowa State Adventure
I arrived at Iowa State as a small-town kid surrounded by 25,000 strangers, wondering if I belonged. One unexpected point on a calculus exam helped change the answer—and the course of my life.
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New Lisbon Basketball
In New Lisbon, basketball was more than a game—it was the heartbeat of winter. In a packed gym on a cold Wisconsin night, a small town could suddenly feel like the center of the world.
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The Hardest Hits Came In Practice
I thought football was teaching me how to hit harder and play tougher. What I didn’t know was that every bruise, drill, and exhausting practice was preparing me for battles far beyond the field.
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High School Years: Survival at Home
To everyone else, I was a normal teenager—good grades, sports, friends, a girlfriend. But behind our front door, a hidden battle was unfolding, and at fifteen, I became my mother’s protector.
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Growing Up Together
I was in sixth grade when I first saw Sue Ann, and somehow the world looked different. What began with a shy glance would become my first love—and an eight-year journey from childhood into adulthood.
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When Summer Felt Endless
For a twelve-year-old new kid, Wa Du Shuda Days offered everything summer promised—carnival lights, fireworks, freedom, and one girl I desperately hoped would notice me.
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The Table That Held Us Together
It wasn’t a fancy table, and we weren’t a perfect family. But night after night, seven of us gathered there—and without realizing it, those simple meals were shaping who we would become.
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The Shack
For one boy in a snowy Wisconsin town, Radio Shack was more than a store—it was a gateway to possibility, where curiosity met a soldering iron and imagination suddenly came alive.
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Learning by Doing
Long before I owned a toolbox of my own, I learned beside my dad that almost anything could be fixed, built, or improved. Those early projects taught me lessons that would last a lifetime.
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Trivia!!!
Long before trivia nights and a career built on problem solving, I was a boy with a tape recorder, a typewriter, and endless questions. I was discovering something that would never leave me: curiosity
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The Halftime Game I'll Never Forget
Long before I understood discipline, I was learning it one shot at a time. What began on a driveway became a lifelong love—and taught me what could happen when passion met persistence.
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Holy Pursuit
My introduction to Winona began with a motel, an open door, and three nuns chasing us across town. We had barely arrived, and already my brothers and I were making memories we’d never forget.
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The Championship Goodbye
On the last day of my childhood in Aurora, I walked onto the ball field chasing a championship. Hours later, I would leave in my uniform—celebrating a victory while saying my hardest goodbye.
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Mornings of Embarrassment
Some childhood struggles disappear with time, but the lessons remain. Mine was a hidden secret—one that would eventually teach me more about shame, compassion, and empathy than I ever expected.
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Swinging Through Childhood
Spider-Man began as a childhood fascination, but his lessons followed me through life. What started with imagination became a story of courage, responsibility, and a bond across three generations.
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Hero Of The Beach
It began with a twelve-cent comic book and a promise that strength could be built. I didn’t know it then, but Spider-Man and Charles Atlas were shaping the man I would become.
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Cabin Life
Bass Lake was more than a weekend escape. It was where adventure, family, and freedom came together—and where lessons I didn’t recognize at the time began shaping my future.
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Before the Phones
We didn’t need screens, schedules, or much supervision—just bikes, woods, a few friends, and daylight. In Sunset Acres, ordinary streets became our playground, and every day became an adventure.
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The Quiet Strength Behind It All
She was the quiet strength behind five boys and the heart of our family. Decades later, life gave me one final gift—the chance to care for the woman who had spent a lifetime caring for me.
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The Beginning
I was the youngest of five boys in a house filled with noise, competition, and adventure. Beyond our backyard waited a whole world to explore—and a childhood that would shape the man I became.
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